Hiydeeho peeps!
How I do indeed wish that I was sitting at a vintage type writer and not at a blaring computer screen, but hey ho, you wouldn't be reading this then would you?
So dear readers, apologies on such a long gap between posts, it's been hectic. But in incredibley good, amazing!!! news!!!! - I have no more credit card debt!!!!
http://www.enemyofdebt.com/the-day-i-killed-my-credit-card/ |
Oh.My.Giddy.Aunt.
I don't think I ever really fathomed that this was actually possible. I don't remember what it felt like to not have a credit card, to have the debt always and forever hanging over me, making my stomach knot and shedding tears of absolute terror at the depth of the chasm that I had somehow, somewhere fallen into.
So. I've clawed my way out to the top and breathed in a large gasp of fresh air and am now just sitting on the ledge looking back down, letting the sun penetrate my skin.....
Shawshank Redemption |
But I'm still at the ledge!?!?!? Any decent (non-masochistic personality) would move the damned hell as far away as possible from that ledge right?
I can't fall down into the chasm of bank debt slavery through credit card again. My accounts are closed, done and definitely dusted. But in the UK, I can apply for an overdraft online, by clicking a few buttons - wha la!! An overdraft is approved. Even worse (if you can believe it!!!) is the fact that I was denied an overdraft when I had over a thousand pounds in my account, but accepted when I was down to five pounds. Dodgy, dodgy and dodgy....
http://www.cartoonstock.com/newscartoons/directory/b/borrower.asp |
Seriously, how is that responsible lending. But it also raises the question to my responsibility also. Money is an emotional matter - pure and simple. This journey has taught me that if nothing else. There is no such thing as cold, hard cash. We attach the myriad of human emotion to money. And it is interesting. It has also been very painful.
I so desperately wanted my last credit card that I had had open since 2003 closed that I put that little bit extra on it this month to close it instead of spreading the cost over two months, being patient and closing it next month. But emotionally I rationalised this very (and there's no other word for it) silly decision because I deserved to feel good, I deserved to finally, once and for all be done with it! Perhaps, also, I feared it may not ever happen. Perhaps.
http://createdinagarden.com/slavery-in-america/fallgardening |
So, of course, I was short this month, firstly because I couldn't afford that extra £100 pounds needed to close the account, and partly because even when I'm at my tightest, I still spend frivolously. To be fair, not as frivolously as I used to. I do completely acknowledge how far I've come. I am aware and concious of my body and emotions when I'm buying something I don't want/can't afford. That in itself is a far cry from my old ways of justifying any purchase with I deserve it. But don't I really deserve to be free from the worry and fear of bank debt slavery?? I deserve that more than I deserve a dress, or a book that is very, very possible to obtain through means other than money (swap, barter etc....) or just simply to not buy it - I probably won't even remember the item six months from now, but I'll be living with the consequences of debt for soooooooo much longer (try 11+ years - I'm not clear of all debt yet!)
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So I've had to get an overdraft of £100 pounds, which means my overdraft fees of £1 per day will be taken out two months down the track - still not free. I'm dangling my feet over the edge of that ledge, dipping my toes back into the dark depths of it's belly. Why? Habit? Emotional comfort? Stockholm Syndrome?
Maybe our motivations and justifications are so deep, so early, so ingrained, that they are just a mystery. Perhaps.
So no credit cards! Huzzah! Still a personal debt, a small overdraft and my student loan (which I'm not counting at the moment....).
Let's have a looksie eh?
July 2014
2nd credit card= $3489.96 (paid off $5383.04), (£1943.34/2997.47) -$1593.43 (paid off $7206.57) (£876.22/£3962.85)
Debt to family = £4000 ($7183.44/0) £4330($7874.24)
Overdraft = £300 ($543.78)
Overdraft = £300 ($543.78)
Total debt = $10 011.45/£5506.22
November 2014
2nd credit card=$3489.96 (paid off $5383.04), (£1943.34/2997.47) -$1593.43 (paid off $7206.57) PAID!!!!!!!
Debt to family = £4330($7874.24) - £4650($)
Overdraft = £100 ($)
Overdraft = £100 ($)
Alright, so a bit has been chipped off, but the HUGE thing is no more cards left. None. Also, there isn't any interest on the family debt, so I'm only paying back what I borrowed. Novel idea, I know.
So everyone, until next time, I'll leave with a couple of favs.....
http://www.queenoffree.net/category/31-ways-to-kick-debt-in-the-teeth/
http://andthenwesaved.com/
PS - the spending fast is !awesome! but I have to work on my emotions and motivations behind my spending habit before I embark on anything like that. I would feel I'm denying myself, and that appears to be my biggest reason for spending/shopping.... but a brilliant idea! In an interview, the blogger for 'And Then We Saved' said this, and it hit the spot.
'SC: What’s your personal favorite resource for money-saving tips and inspiration?
So everyone, until next time, I'll leave with a couple of favs.....
http://www.queenoffree.net/category/31-ways-to-kick-debt-in-the-teeth/
http://andthenwesaved.com/
PS - the spending fast is !awesome! but I have to work on my emotions and motivations behind my spending habit before I embark on anything like that. I would feel I'm denying myself, and that appears to be my biggest reason for spending/shopping.... but a brilliant idea! In an interview, the blogger for 'And Then We Saved' said this, and it hit the spot.
'SC: What’s your personal favorite resource for money-saving tips and inspiration?
ANJ: I wouldn’t say I have a favorite resource so much as that I have a motto for saving—How can I do what I want to do without spending a single cent? By keeping that question in mind, I come up with clever ways to save throughout every area of my life.'
http://www.smartycents.com/blog-and-then-we-saved/